Clarity

I have these moments of clarity when I feel like I know exactly what to do. It all suddenly makes so much sense. Like the answer has just been there waiting for me to find it.
And then other times it's so easy for me to lose any kind of motivation and dedication I had and all I can do is be miserable. I do that a lot actually.

Misguided

I've never known what it's like to belong. I've always felt out of place. In my family, in school, on the street, at work, in life. I'm always the odd man out. It's like there's this other world where everyone seems to live and I only get to see it from a distance. Things happen around me and I merely observe it, but not really experience it. Like I'm living without existing. Or perhaps the other way around, whichever sounds more poetic.

WHY I'M A MINIMALIST

I recently made a new youtube video discussing my views on minimalism, how I became a minimalist & also the controversy around it. My views on minimalism might differ from what you've heard before. I just wanted to make it clear that not all minimalists are the same.

25 THINGS ABOUT ME

I'm back with a new video o my youtube channel. And this time I'm doing something totally new! It felt super weird shooting and editing this video. I'm so used to writing blog posts and editing photos that it comes with a sense of security. But speaking on camera definately did not come easy for me.

FIVE MINIMALIST ESSENTIALS FOR FALL

Fall is my favorite season, I'm sure I've mentioned it more that necessary. There's just something about Fall that makes me feel like anything can happen and that the world is full of possibilities. As you know I've started my youtube channel and I'm back with a new video. This time I'm listing down my Top Five Minimalist Essentials for Fall.

HELLO YOUTUBE

I've been wanting to do this for a long time now & finally I did. Yes, I'm talking about Youtube. I'm taking my blog to the next level and you're coming with me! I just posted my first video, please check it out & tell me what you think.

WARSAW: A VISUAL DIARY

I don't really talk about it a lot, but I have no idea how it's like to live in a city you love. I often feel like I was born in the wrong part of the world or at least the wrong country. I don't identify with my nationality, I don't care about local news and I don't feel like a partiot. I have no idea of what it's like to feel a sense of belonging.

BLACK CLOTHES MATTER

Powerful & in control. That's how I feel. That's how an all black outfit makes me feel. I don't understand people who underestimate the power of clothing. Fashion is something more than just the clothes on our bodies. Fashion is a way for us to show the world who we are or who we want to become. With the right clothes you can do anything, you can be anything, you just have to want it enough. And believe me, I want it. I want it bad. And when I wear black, it's like something awakens in me, that beast that's living inside of me. And it's hungry. It's hungry for success. We often forget about our ambitions and tell ourselves that we're satisfied with what we have. But the truth is, I want more. And I'll go and get it, it's waiting for me somewhere, waiting for my beast. And don't worry, I'll get there, even if it means going against the stream.

There's more

For a long time I have felt like I have to justify a blog post by posting an outfit or some fashion related something that I don't even care about that much. I've felt like I have to fit a certain category. Like I have to be a certain type of blogger. I have tried to put myself inside a certain frame and it doesn't seem to fit. For so many times I've felt like I have to say goodbye to blogging. And then I've picked myself up and tried again, but it always seems to go back to old patterns. I've been so inconsistent. And it's all just because I feel like I have to post certain posts and talk about certain things. I used to love blogging, it used to be my whole life, I spent hours and hours doing it and I loved every second. Now it feels like a chore. The truth is, my interests don't just stop at what I wear or the things I make. My interests are much more diverse than that. Yes, I love writing about personal style, but there is only so much that you can write on the same topic.

GONE N BACK

This happens to me sometimes. I make a commitment to myself and fail to deliver. I guess my problem is the fact that I easily get excited about new things and when that first excitement fades away all that's left is me and my procrastination. I try to deal with it, make promises to myself, make plans, but something always stops me. I've always thought that I know exactly what I want to do in life while the reality is much different. In reality, I'm holding onto this idea of myself that I'm not even sure exists. And while I know that it's just an illusion, admitting it would be like shattering the earth beneath my feet. I know that's what I should do, but instead I lie to myself.